What K-Pop have teach me

BEAST - Recycle Group.
BEAST taught me to never give up. Always dream big and strive for it. Everybody tries and fails but never fail to try. Despite working hard for years. Still the outcome is not satisfying. But they believe in trying and not giving up. They believe one day, they will achieve success and here they are currently one of Korea's Top Group.


Junhyung - Enduring Pain.
Feeling sad about idols had to perform eventhough they are in pain? Obviously I do feel that but they choose this path. They know it will hurt them eventually. But nothing in this world is easy what more when it comes to receiving money in future. I have PID or commonaly said "slipped disc" and also asthma. Yes, it is painful. I nag all the time when I'm in pain. But after seeing Junhyung enduring the pain. Seeing him limping. Performing on stage like nothing happen. Smile to all like he is in great condition. I now know how to handle my pain.


SuJu - Break-Ups Makes You Stronger.
We experience break-ups all the time whether it's because of death, study, working, argument with family members, boyfriend, friends. We all just do but how you handle the situation is what counts the most. When Hankyung left SuJu, everybody especially Heechul was heart broken but this doesn't bring them down but teaches them to become a stronger group. I've experience losing someone I love, arguing with my friends and parting with my working sister but these only makes me stronger to face the world's reality.


Heechul - Learn To Forgive.
Heechul is knows for his temper. I guess all ELFS knows that. When he was hit by the LED board by a fan during a performance instead of getting mad. He remain cool and forgive the fan for doing so. He hoped that this incident will never happen again. I for one have very bad temper. But, lately, I try to learn how to be calm and forgive people around me and even if I didn't make mistake, it's ok to just ask for forgiveness.


See people? K-Pop is not a bad thing. It's not just about entertaining but also teach you about the value of life. There's moral vales everywhere in this world. You just have open your eyes and see. Their variety shows are not only about laughing but some of it also give you benefits. There's nothing in this world that are solely bad.

This pain is unbearable

Nothing hurts the most than seeing our BEAST Boys in pain.
The more BEAST in pain, the more B2UTYs are in pain.
I can't stand watching them like this.

Forget the past where Junhyung muscle torned.
Yoseob had cord nodule.
The issue now is the PRESENT.
Why is CUBE being so mean to these boys?
They are just young boys.
Unlike SuJu who are way older and free to voice out.
I'm scared, I really am.
SuJu case won't be repeated in BEAST.

I was wrong about Cube being a good company!
It turned out Cube is exactly the same as SM Town!
I don't care about the Boys demands in the market.
Sick is sick, and you have to rest when you are sick!

Kikwang was with crutches and on wheelchair during UCC Brazil.
I'm sure the fans could understand Kikwang's condition.
He dance when he had crutches?? WTH is this nonsense??
BEAT THE CRAP THE HELL OUT OF ME!!!
Kikwang is still unwell and he continued ALL of his schedule.
Yes it does shows how STRONG BEAST are,
but this is NOT what we want.

Junhyung had to get acupuncture that day.
he is still limping and you guys made them PERFORM??
And this is just part of the day! They still have special stage later.
and what about tomorrow? 
BEAST's dance is NO JOKE! Ask those who dance to it.

Dear Cube,with all due respect please please please.
We begged so that BEAST have a PROPER REST.
The thing is whenever Cube says BEAST will have rest.
It's NOT A REST! They still perform here and there!!!!
Just make BEAST hospitalized. Please!
So that they have proper rest with proper check ups.
Watched over by REAL DOCTORS..
Please Hong Papa!

The world is turning.

For the past days, my mind is not at peace.
I don't know why but it seems like,
I have so many questions regarding Nam Woohyun,
that even me, myself can explain the questions.

To be honest, I still have doubts over Infinite,
Yeah, but now my subject is ONLY Woohyun!
Everything started when my heart ask,
Is his heart really sincere over the things he had done??
Because to me, it doesn't seem like.
I don't how or why I got this feeling,
but one thing for sure it's very disturbing.
I really wish with all whole heart that, 
Nam Woohyun himself could answer this doubts I'm having 
because it's killing me slowly yet deeply.

Everything that I see currently is just not right.
The way he react,
The way he talk,
The way he respond,
The way he answers,
The was he dance,
The way he sing,
EVERYTHING he does is just so wrong!

It seems like he did it because he was forced to,
not because he is sincere in his job.
I'm sorry Woohyun, I really really am.
But if only you could give me a sign,
to answers these doubts.

I know that Woohyun is a good person.
But I just can't find his sincerity these days,
like how I did before when I fell for him..
Please don't force me to hate you because I can't

Things To Know (Part 2)

- I hate GUYS touching me, like seriously! I don't mine girls though. In fact, I love to hold girls. But then yeah, this is when all the drama of lesbian came. I AM STRAIGHT! If not why do I have so many Namja Idols photo at my blog, right? I love to hold hands especially when I'm out for shopping or something like that. That's why I rarely go out with only GUYS and people I don't really know because I won't hold them. I will only hold my family and friends. Oh but if Namja Idols came, I guess I have no choice but to hold them.. HOHO.. or I can just HUG them! ^_^


- I have OBSESSION over cute things. I can't hold myself whenever I saw cute things especially stuffy dolls. I have tons of stuff things in my house that my family had to give them away! HOHO.. Compared to before, I can control my obsession now. If I saw anything cute, I'll just say, "There are cuter things". This way, I'm not only saving my money but also learn to control myself that I can't have everything in this world.


- I have Ophidiophobia and Herpetophobia. What the heck am I saying? Yeah, I'm sure this is your reaction when you read this. HAHA. I have phobia towards Snakes. Yeah, I hate them to the max that I can't even explain. It's like in my TOP list nightmares and also all the entire family of Reptiles and Amphibian. Between Reptiles and Amphibians, I have to say I hate Reptiles more because of their scales. HOSHEET. Oke NO MORE!! Just writing makes me sick. But yeah, you got the picture how much I hate these two.

Photo Update #1

It has been so long since I update the photos for the gadgets.
I finally got the time to do so and here it is, tadaaaaaaaaa!
Oh yeah, the list are getting longer too. kekekekeke~ ^_^

Please Welcome the new family members,
Nam Woohyun.
Lee Howon (Hoya).
Kim Seyong.
Lee Byunghun (L.Joe)
Aaron Mustapha Aziz.

THE CONCEPT is : CUTE ^_^

Thank You JunSeob

JunSeob, the longest pairing I have loved so far. 

Not just love, OBSESSED! Haha. I just love these two. 

They make the world a wonderful place for me. 

Eventhough it's really hard to see JunSeob these days,

it's ok, no one to blame but myself for believing it's real.

The memories I have bout them, I'll cherish the MOST.

Yong Junhyung & Yang Yoseob thank you for living.

I have so many things to say but I guess it doesn't come out.

Words can't describe, just I Love You.
#ThanksToJunSeob - 21st December

Infinite Facts

Q : Which of the members would most likely be the best at love & relationships?

1) Sunggyu: Dongwoo
- When you first see him he seems clumsy but he has a pure charm.

2) Dongwoo: Woohyun 
- He has a charm that you can’t hate even if you want to.

3) Woohyun: Sunggyu
- I think he’d be the bad boy type.

4) Hoya: Woohyun - 
I don’t know but I think he’d be good at it.

5) Sungyeol: Dongwoo
- Because his emotions/feelings are faithful.

6) Myungsoo: Woohyun 
- He has aegyo and seems like he would be popular amongst girls.

7) Sungjong: Woohyun 
- Because he has a strange charm and aegyo.


#4 out of 7? I have nothing to say.
I have to agree with Dongwoo and Sungjong.
But L's reason, popular amongst girls?
I sincerely don't like that.
He is, he really is, I can't explain it.
This is the reason that I don't like about him..
Not that his popular but his way..

First is everything.

Everything started on 23rd of December 2011. Starting from twilight, I felt an unexplainable pain on the right side of my lower abdomen. The pain continues as night became darker and darker. I remember, it was midnight when I came to father and said "I can't stand the pain any longer". He drove me to the nearest private hospital, Pantai Cheras Medical Center. After a killer waiting, I finally met the doctor. A guy probably in his mid of 30s, very tall and handsome. Yes, indeed he is. Everything was spilled out. From A - Z, there's no secrets. He checked me and said "I have to admit you, I suspect you have appendix". My mind went blank. What's appendix? Why does it sounds so scary? Why do I have it? Aren't I too young? Then he continued "Everybody has appendix but only a few had problems with it". That's how I was admitted. He took my blood for tests. Hand drip and gave me a super painful painkiller. I remember he said "I can't find your vein, can we put the drip higher?". I told him "Use my right hand instead" and he does. He came back later with the blood test result and said, "As for now everything leads to appendix. You have to stay here tonight. The specialist will come and check you tomorrow morning" and that's how my day ends.

The very next morning, I woke up and see my parents at my bed side while enduring an enormous pain ables me to smile. Around 8AM, the specialist came. He checked and ask me to went for ultrasound. What's a ultrasound? The imaging device used to checked babies. The result came out and the specialist confirms that I have appendix. I was scheduled for EMERGENCY SURGERY. As the said that, I went pale. Who's not scared of the Operation Theater? Anything could happen in there especially when you know, you have ASTHMA. The doctor said "Don't worry, it's just a small surgery. I have done this many times from old lady to babies" and smiled. I was a bit convinced but I'm still scared.

Changed to the surgery uniform and I was pushed to the OT along with all of my family members. I was taped to the bed and the specialist came in and tell me "Don't worry" smiled and pat me. I remember the sound of the metals colliding, i suppose it was the knives, then I was injected with a painful medication, covered with masked and that's all that I can remember.

As I open my eyes, it was raining. My eyes can stop crying. The after effect of the surgery was really painful. Only Allah knows how I felt at that time. One of them came to me and said "Sharifah, you have awake. Congratulations! The surgery was a success!". The first word that came out from me was "I wanna vomit". He went and search me a container. I want, and tried to vomit number of times but the pain was so great and tears came out instead. I was brought out of the OT and how glad was I to see my father and sister. My mother and other sisters were waiting for me at my room. The same guy just now showed me the specimen. While still not fully unconscious, I remember holding it.

I was then sent to my room by bed. Seeing all of my family members there makes me feel so blessed. I continue on trying to vomit and finally I did vomit. It was very painful and tears flow non stop. I know my mother were unable to look at my pain but she was still there helping me out. My drip was continued. I slept till night and changed my room to a single bed room. I survive more than 24 hours without any food and another 24 hours on drip as I recall, glucose.

The next morning, 25th December 2011. My hand was all swollen. The glucose and the antibiotics that I've taken are too much already. I had to change hand for the drip. Remember the handsome doctor? He came to my room personally to put another drip for me.
When he entered the room he said "Oh you, so how was it? It was really appendix?".
"Yeah"
"Oh, so when is your surgery"
"Yesterday morning"
"Oh! you operate already, so this is my drip that other day?"
"Yep"
"At least it last for 2 days, haha"

He have this way of holding patients hand. Like holding a princess. Again, he can't find my vein and had no choice but to put the drip higher. He said it's gonna be painful. My automatic reaction, I pulled my hand away and he pulled it back. LOL

The whole day was boring plus about enduring pain. I can't laugh, cough, sneeze. Talk also very softly. When my sister came to accompany me, I can't stop laughing. It was really bad. Tears flow continuously, I felt sorry for my sister since it's my fault for laughing but she felt bad.

The next day was a new day. it was deepavali anyway and my specialist is an Indian. I was told that I will be discharged. I was so happy. But waiting for them to discharged me was hell. It took them the whole day to process it. I tried to walk around slowly and I realised that the scenery from my room was very beautiful. How should I know before right? I was on the bed all the time. On the way home, bumper is not a friend of mine. Every movement is define as PAIN. Then I finally came back and bath.

So, this is my appendix experience and also my first time surgery experience. Yes, it was scary to be truth but having a person like my specialist makes things easier. This experience teaches me all about patience and enduring hardship. It was 3 weeks before SPM as I remember when I got appendix. But, I'm very thankful now that I'm all healthy now. Alhamdulillah. Thank You Dr. Hazizi as my emergency doctor and Dr. Retna for treating my appendix.

Time

Did time stop again?

Is it going to fall asleep like this again?

While staring blankly outside

I’m thinking about you with my two eyes closed.

Even though time is passing by again 

I’m going back to that time again

Although I try hard to find everything in your memories.

I’m crying by myself there but

As my tears stopped I’m laughing but

I’m waiting again

Until I can breathe again.

Even though time is passing by again 

I’m going back to that time again

I’m trying hard to find everything in your memories

I’m crying by myself there but

As my tears stopped I’m laughing but

after leaving you alone

I’m wandering around here with memories I can’t erase.

Although I don’t have anything to say and I can’t hear you but

even so if I can find you like this

I’ll wait for you now until time stops.

I know well that I can’t say anything

even so I’m searching for you but

I know well you won’t change your thoughts but

I still can’t forget you.

Although I don’t have anything to say and I can’t hear you but

even so if I can find you like this

I’ll wait for you now until time stops.

If I can find you, I’ll wait for you now, until I can breathe again.

This guy is my third husband by date.

This is hard to handle. Reasons?

1)Red and Black Outfit.

2) His Hair.

3) His cleavage.

4) His sweat.

5) His Hand.

Thank You baby Lia ^_^

JunSeob Medley~

LOL These two!! Like newly weds.

Ok this? This is SUPER INSANE!! 

Look at how he is hugging Yoseob! @_@

Up until now, I still have no idea why they wear mask.

Look at Junhyung playing peek-a-boo with us!! aww~

United Cube in London.

Not sure what performance was the first picture.

But the second one was during VIU.

Love how Junhyung's hand is always around Yoseob.

Oh! Breathe in, breathe out! Jun.Seob! 

LOL. This is cute! Triangle love!!

People, I am seriously madly in LOVE with JunSeob!

Just look at these two like newly weds.

THE CUTEST THING ALIVE!

Tingkatan 5 SMKSM.

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