SELF EXPLAINATORY
People might thing Im a COWARD for writing this when it's already school break but it's NOT like that at all. It took me ages to do this because I had to choose my word wisely. Some content MAY REALLY HURT you but I had to do this considering things just doesn't change infact it has gone worst and in history there's a term where they use "CAMPUR TANGAN". Yeah, concidering all the busy bodys are getting more and more and more.
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You see, I MAY seem like the type that rebels all the time and I can't except others ideas. But I think Im the one in the group that always remain silence. I do change a lot of things but all of that are for good. If you guys could actually recall everything back and if you guys take it as GOOD CHANGE. When ever you guys said something, I will just do my own thing and ignore you guys because you just don't realised what you said really hurts me. Everytime you guys hurt me, I had to remain silence because I really don't wanna argue.
But that day, I really can't stand it. Just because I stay silence all the time Im hurt doesn't mean I'll stay like that forever and because of that I think I did what "I did".It took me ages to burst and I really did that day. Im a human and a NORMAL one too ofcz I have feelings.
But you! YES YOU GUYS! HAVE YOU GUYS EVER UNDERSTANDS ME? IT TOOK ME ONE CONVERSATION TO UNDERSTAND YOU GUYS! BUT DID YOU GUYS EVER UNDERSTAND ME? NO! NEVER! YOU GUYS DON'T EVEN TRY TO UNDERSTAND ME! WHY? BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE FEELING? IS THAT IT? HAH!? BECAUSE IF THAT'S IT, IT MUST BE MY MISTAKE FOR KNOWING YOU GUYS TOO WELL!
When ever you guys have problem. When ever you guys are hurt because of each other, I always start to comfort you first. Didn't I???? Because I hate seeing you driven a part but still when this kinda situation came, you guys STILL DON'T KNOW ME! and yet YOU GUYS BLAME ME FOR EVERYTHING!
I, up until know still don't know what is my SO-CALLED-BIGGEST MISTAKE! WHAT EVER IT IS THAT I DO, I ADMIT MY MISTAKE! What did I do that day? Yes, I cried. Why? Because I can't stand being treat like a SHIT. I left. Why? Because it really eats me inside. I came back. Why? Because I took everything seriously! What more of DANCING? It has been PART OF ME FOR AGES! and you guys know it, YET you guys took it lighty~!
You guys hate me for coming back, because you guys thought I would took the spotlight. Yet! Didn't you guys were the one who got all the "REWARDS". I tried, I really did tried my best to dance like a stupido because I DON'T WANNA STEAL YOUR SPOTLIGHT! and yes, The OUTCOME..I really do loo0k STUPID! Like someone who never dance.
I BROUGHT YOU GUYS ON THAT STAGE! and did you guys ever THANK me?? NO! right? Why? Because Im you stoopid freind. I don't EVEN WANT YOUR THX! All I wanted is to be treated like a NORMAL HUMAN BEING WHICH GOT FEELINGS! You guys said so much because you couldn't do what you practice when I was gone. The MOVES~ The SMILE~ The POSE~ If it wasn't for me, you guys wouldn't even stand the chance to wear all those Purple stuffs.
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And of you comments, don't you think I've read them all. I just have ONE THING TO SAY! EVERYTHING THAT I WROTE is just TO REPLY. REPLYYYYY! REPLY WHAT YOU GUYS SAID! I never STARTED ANYTHING! Because I care about you guys and I don't want things to be bad. and You guys said alllllllllllllllllllll the "freaking GOOD WORDS" to others about me. Did I care??? That's a question for you guys. WHAT DO YOU CARE? Lemme ANSWER! YES! YOU DO CARE FOR YOUR OWN GOOD ONLY!
"ape mencarot2 dlm blog" - Aku xtahu pulak yang ko ni BUTA! TAK RETI BACA! KO BUKAK BALIK BLOG AKU! APE YG AKU MENCAROT???? HAH!??? Cube jawab balek soalan ak nie.
"bile jmpe depan2 xde pulak nk mencarot2 cm dlm blog" - BUAT APE AK NK CKP NGN KORG???? Sedangkan ape yg ak tulis pon sbb ak mereply ape yg korg tulis dlm facebook la ini la tu la. SEMUA NYER HANYE REPLY!
"NOBODY is PERFECT" - hah! bile ak bace nie ak RASE NK GELAK JE! nie la statement paling BODOH ak jumpe! Aku cakap "TOO GOOD" WEYH BAHLOL! ko blaja BI kan? PERFECT ngn TOO GOOD same yeh? Tulis nk GEMPAK JE! tp kalo betul tu xpe la weyh! BANGANG! YE! AK MENGAKU AK BUKAN PERFECT MCM KORG! KORG KAN PREFECT SNGT! SBB TU AK PRACTICE! Ko kan pandai sngt, xkn xpenah jumpe ayat "PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT".
"kite org xkn rehat situ" - weyh! ak XDE HAL la KORG XNK REHAT situ~ AK LAGI HAPPY xpayah tngk muke korg! Ye, Ak pikir 100 kali nk rehat kt mane sbb xnk ganggu korg tp bile ak pikir balek. Ak yg first dudok situ! SO it's MY PLACE! Ko ade ckp, "tu mmg bukan tmpt kteorg" Da, ABES TU?? belah lah.
"selesaikan cara matang" - nie yg seronok nie bile org luar da msok skali. KO NK MASOK CAMPUR APESAL?? PIKIR KO TU DULU! Mcm in good situation!! and ak ade bace "mmg nk selesaikan care matang tp die tu ha" DIE TU HA?!!! YEH! KORG yg bersikap TAK MATANG LANGSUNG! Ak NK SELESAIKAN korg TARIK MUKE! SINDIR2~ weyh, tu matang ye? oh, LUPE PULAK! SINDIR TU MATANG! AK rase mase ak darjah 6 ak dah xpakai sindir2 nie..Sindir2 bende paling bodoh! So, SKANG SAPE YG X MATANG???
"kte org dah kick ur ass out" - hurm~ sorry to break it to u sista but i declare myself out so xpayah nk bangge dpt kick org out. xpayah lah ko nk bangge sngt ngn name korg tu sbb mnde tu pon ak yg create just ak xcreate MBV FILE je..
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KEPADE : ORANG2 "CAMPUR TANGAN"
ape yg korg dngr tu SEMUA NYER BETUL~ kalo org nk defend dri sndiri mmg semua nyer betul. mcm ko x defend diri ko kan. tp ak ade satu je soalan. ASAL KO KESAH SANGAT???? KO DA XDE KEJE?? ke nk MATI dah? Ak xtau ape dorg ckp kt ko tp ak tau ak XNAK KESAH! Ak tau sume nyer yg xbetul and lagi nk turun kan name ak.
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KEPADE : YANG BERKAITAN.
ak XTAU APE SALAH AK tp ak ADMIT ape je yg ak bwt. Ak nk selesaikan tp KORG YG XNAK and KORG yg PILIH JALAN nie. So, ak GO ON WITH THE FLOW! Yg pasti nyer ak tau korg marah sbb KORG MESTI KNE MARAH NGN CIKGU and sbb tu korg XPUAS ATI so BENCI ak BALEK. Fine then, Let's JUST LIVE OUR OWN LIFES! ak nk ckp terima kasih bnyk2 sb layan ak yg bodoh nie selame ini. and MINTAK MAAF bnyk2 sbb ak ckp psl haram tu. Ak mmg xde niat mcm tu. SEMUA YG AK BAGI dr F1 sampai skang AK HALAL SEMUA! and aku nk ckp betape ak cherish korg walaupun saket nyer kt dlm. IT HURTS ME TO HURT YOU BUT IT FOR THE BEST FOR ALL OF US. WHATEVER THAT I WROTE ABOVE IF IT HURTS YOU GUYS AND RSE AKU NIE "POYO" SNGT, AK MINTAK MAAF BNYK2 DR HUJUNG RAMBUT KE HUJUNG KAKI.
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THINGS JUST STILL REMAIN UNCHANGE AND UNSOLVED. I CAN'T HELP IT. I NEED THEM TO HELP ME BUT IT SEEMS LIKE NOTHING WILL CHANGE. I DON'T ASK FOR THIS NOR I HOPE FOR THIS SO I'LL JUST REMAIN SILENCE UNTIL I KNEW WHAT I DID. WELL, AT LEAST I KNOW MY PLACE AND I DID APOLOGISE.
