.......

My heart is still hurting
I can't hold in my tears,
Eventhough I said I had already forgotten
Even if I try to lie to myself

What did I do wrong?
I don't know the reason
No matter how hard I try
in the end it's still you

Eventhough I really don't know the reason
Because you're always right
and I'm always wrong
Let's go back

Like crazy
My tears are falling
At this rate, I'll really go crazy
What should I do? My tears keep falling

The Best so far~

Since the school holidays starts,
This week 21st - 26th Novermber 2010,
would be the best week of pain endurance..

Starting from 21st, Im having a MAJOR HEADACHE,
Sleeping for hours still doesn't do any help,
I had to ate 2 Active Fast Panadols~
I don't really take Panadol unless really needed,
and I took 2 that day, that is how painful it is.
I also starts to whezze.. 


On 22nd, I had a stomachache,
Stomachache is actually rather normal,
hahahaha~ I got it almost everyday but,
This time was different, the pain was.... OMG!
>>.<<  it was freaking painful that I feel like dying.
My whezzing became worst.


On 23rd, Early in the Morning Im already having flu,
Later that Afternoon, I start to cough..
In the Evening, my nose were like completely red XD
and my throat is dead~ HA HA HA HA..
My whezzing became even worst..

On 24th, On "daddy day". Oh ya, before that,
this was the best so far..
At first, I feel something at my ankle was colliding,
I had to stop from walking since the pain was too GREAT,
Then, Ayah n my sisters helped me to walk.
I was in the car for sometime and reaches the next destination..
When I start to walk again, the pain was ENORMOUS..
I feel like screaming there,
Later that night I went for check-up,
The doctor says it was my ligament.
He gave me some medicine and cream.
He says if this doesn't work, the next step is injection.
Injection near my ankle?? NO WAY!
and Im still whezzing..

So, Now, Im having a really bad time.
CAN'T WALK, CAN'T BREATHE, CAN'T DANCEEEEEE~

Calling for JOKER n CUTIE-PIE fans~

credit for photo : MYB2UTY

MYB2UTY will be helding JunSeob Birthday Partey~!! *fireworks*

and We are inviting all B2UTYs~

Especially, Junhyung's and Yoseob's wifey!

Aren't you guys excited?

Im too excited that words won't come out already..

We have prepare A LOT for you guys,

so plase don't miss it..

Details regarding the Party;

D A T E
december 26, 2010 (sunday)

T I M E
12.00pm - 5.00pm

P L A C E
food garden, 3rd floor, the garden (how to go?)

F E E S
rm10 per person

A T T I R E
*will decide soon*

A C T I V I T I E S
performances : special guest / members / staff
games : 'myb2uty almighty / 'myb2uty bouquet'
cake ceremony / group photo

~PLEASE TAKE NOTE~

*RE-CONFIRM your ATTENDENCE at MYB2UTY FORUM*

*This event is fully organized by MYB2UTY*

*NO BEAST nor CUBE Ent. Artist will be involved*

*Registration FEE's DATELINE is 22nd.December.2010*

CLICK ON THE LINK BELOW (in blue)

-CONFIRM ATTENDENCE BY REPLYING-

-HOW TO BANK IN MONEY-

-TO FILL IN DETAILS FOR GAME-

MYB2UTY - JunSeob Birthday Party Thread

P/S: Replying at the forum's thread is very IMPORTANT.

thank you for your cooperation and,

HOPE TO SEE YOU! ^_^

ngoi~ NGOI~

yow people~
*it's so noisy out there!!!!!!!!!!!!!*
The Goverment should know people wanna sleep at night~

Today, Im gonna write about SICK, SICK n SICK 
n n n mybe PAIN?? hahahaha~

What is the meaning of sick?
Sick is physically or mentally unwell; ill
means, it can occur in physical or mental state.

While pain is physical suffering or discomfort,
caused by injury or disease.

Well, in my case, I'd have to say im sick~
because most of the time,
My physical will fall sick if my mental is sick..

Not all the time Im sick because of my mental
but it is true that mental illness could control physical too~

I think this explains why Im sick all the time,
my sickness is not because of my physical state only,

but lately I think my asthma is controlled my by my mental,
Isn't it kinda stupid? How can Asthma connected to Mental..
But, I seriously think it does~
Because sometimes when my mental is in disorganize,
My Asthma will come..
Weird isn't it?? it's true tho~

That's all for tonight~
Byeyo!

still keeping up the BEAST love,

zue comel ^_^

SHIKURO! SHUT UP!

PEOPLE SHOULD JUST,
SHUT UP AND BACKOFF!!
I really2 FUCK those who kept COMPARING OUR BEAST!

Well, I know you don't have IDOL that are so SUPERB!
and freaking freakishly aweSOOM!
But you should just kept everything to yourself..

Im really PISSED OFF right now!
Im so MAD that even words can't come out..

I can tolerate ANYTHING AT ALL,
but when it come to BEAST,
NO WAY IM BACKING OFF!

I know that many doesn't agree
with the fact BEAST change their image,
I don't agree too at the first place,
But they had to change~ Eventho, Seriously, I don't want them to..
If you can't accept BEAST then
Just Live You Life!
and don't bother BEAST n B2UTYs

B2UTYs are much more POWERFUL than you are,
So, you might wanna watch your mouth!

BEAST has set a SUPERB RECORD oke!

meaningful numbers to me..

yow people~

today wanna share what my LUCKY NUMBER are..

3.4.5.6 

why? each numbers above means something to me..

3 - Special number that I always use for MY DEAR JOKER, Yong Junhyung. Since he is number 3 in BEAST according to age wise. 

4 - This number is specially for BBY CUTIE-PIE, Yang Yoseob. Because according to age sequence he is number 4 in BEAST. This number also means A LOT to me because Im number 4 in my family.

5 - I dedicate this number for MY LOVELY JunSeob. Because 5 comes after 3 and 4. This number is also very meaningful to me because I am GRANDCHILD number 5. This number is as meaningful as JunSeob, me being number 5 grandchild and also how much I love my grandparents.

6 - 6 is the most IMPORTANT and MEANINGFUL number to me! there are more secrets than you could imagine. 6 represents MY FAMILY which got 6 members in it ans also MY FAVORITE IDOL, BEAST! B2ST also got 6 members in it. That's why whenever I wanted to post something about them, it will always be 6!

*These are the numbers that I will always remember and whenever Im posting something, check out the number. Everything I post is not just for fun. Sometimes, behide my post theres meaning. 

Hari Raya Aidiladha

Hello Everybody, it's  ZUE ZUE ZUE ZUE ZUE here XD!
Im back people and more energetic too! keke~

How was your Raya Aidiladha guys? 

I hope You had an aweSOOM like mine too!

I woke up at about 8 in the morning by my Mak,

Then, play with my cousins for a while,

They had an overnight at my place,

So, I played with them bubbles and all,

Azeem even hit my head with his sword full of bubble,

I thought my head my about to die at that time, haha~

He really hit hard~ DANG! Ha Ha Ha Ha..

Then, I took my bath for hours XD,

Only then I came down again to help out,

I help abit in the kitchen and play again with my cousins!

We play bubbles until I was SOOMless,

Then, My Father and Uncle came back form the Mosque,

So we had our breakfast..

Continue playing with my cousins,

and my other siblings came..

We PLAY PLAY PLAY PLAY and PLAY!

We had our lunch,

Then, PLAY, HELP OUT <-- IM TODAY'S MAID :(

HELP HELP HELP and PLAYYYYYYYYYYY,

Help baby to get their sleep > FREAKING TIRED! haha~

Over all today was a GREAT day! I really had FUN!

Haven't feel like this for a while, 

I feel so REFRESH!! and ya also very super duper TIRED XP

kpde yg berkaitan sile bace

SELF EXPLAINATORY

People might thing Im a COWARD for writing this when it's already school break but it's NOT like that at all. It took me ages to do this because I had to choose my word wisely. Some content MAY REALLY HURT you but I had to do this considering things just doesn't change infact it has gone worst and in history there's a term where they use "CAMPUR TANGAN". Yeah, concidering all the busy bodys are getting more and more and more.

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You see, I MAY seem like the type that rebels all the time and I can't except others ideas. But I think Im the one  in the group that always remain silence. I do change a lot of things but all of that are for good. If you guys could actually recall everything back and if you guys take it as GOOD CHANGE. When ever you guys said something, I will just do my own thing and ignore you guys because you just don't realised what you said really hurts me. Everytime you guys hurt me, I had to remain silence because I really don't wanna argue. 

But that day, I really can't stand it. Just because I stay silence all the time Im hurt doesn't mean I'll stay like that forever and because of that I think I did what "I did".It took me ages to burst and I really did that day. Im a human and a NORMAL one too ofcz I have feelings. 

But you! YES YOU GUYS! HAVE YOU GUYS EVER UNDERSTANDS ME? IT TOOK ME ONE CONVERSATION TO UNDERSTAND YOU GUYS! BUT DID YOU GUYS EVER UNDERSTAND ME? NO! NEVER! YOU GUYS DON'T EVEN TRY TO UNDERSTAND ME! WHY? BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE FEELING? IS THAT IT? HAH!? BECAUSE IF THAT'S IT, IT MUST BE MY MISTAKE FOR KNOWING YOU GUYS TOO WELL!

When ever you guys have problem. When ever you guys are hurt because of each other, I always start to comfort you first. Didn't I???? Because I hate seeing you driven a part but still when this kinda situation came, you guys STILL DON'T KNOW ME! and yet YOU GUYS BLAME ME FOR EVERYTHING!

I, up until know still don't know what is my SO-CALLED-BIGGEST MISTAKE! WHAT EVER IT IS THAT I DO, I ADMIT MY MISTAKE! What did I do that day? Yes, I cried. Why? Because I can't stand being treat like a SHIT. I left. Why? Because it really eats me inside. I came back. Why? Because I took everything seriously! What more of DANCING? It has been PART OF ME FOR AGES! and you guys know it, YET you guys took it lighty~! 

You guys hate me for coming back, because you guys thought I would took the spotlight. Yet! Didn't you guys were the one who got all the "REWARDS". I tried, I really did tried my best to dance like a stupido because I DON'T WANNA STEAL YOUR SPOTLIGHT! and yes, The OUTCOME..I really do loo0k STUPID! Like someone who never dance.

I BROUGHT YOU GUYS ON THAT STAGE! and did you guys ever THANK me?? NO! right? Why? Because Im you stoopid freind. I don't EVEN WANT YOUR THX! All I wanted is to be treated like a NORMAL HUMAN BEING WHICH GOT FEELINGS! You guys said so much because you couldn't do what you practice when I was gone. The MOVES~ The SMILE~ The POSE~ If it wasn't for me, you guys wouldn't even stand the chance to wear all those Purple stuffs.

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And of you comments, don't you think I've read them all. I just have ONE THING TO SAY! EVERYTHING THAT I WROTE is just TO REPLY. REPLYYYYY! REPLY WHAT YOU GUYS SAID! I never STARTED ANYTHING! Because I care about you guys and I don't want things to be bad. and You guys said alllllllllllllllllllll the "freaking GOOD WORDS" to others about me. Did I care??? That's a question for you guys. WHAT DO YOU CARE? Lemme ANSWER! YES! YOU DO CARE FOR YOUR OWN GOOD ONLY!

"ape mencarot2 dlm blog" - Aku xtahu pulak yang ko ni BUTA! TAK RETI BACA! KO BUKAK BALIK BLOG AKU! APE YG AKU MENCAROT???? HAH!??? Cube jawab balek soalan ak nie. 

"bile jmpe depan2 xde pulak nk mencarot2 cm dlm blog" - BUAT APE AK NK CKP NGN KORG???? Sedangkan ape yg ak tulis pon sbb ak mereply ape yg korg tulis dlm facebook la ini la tu la. SEMUA NYER HANYE REPLY!

"NOBODY is PERFECT" - hah! bile ak bace nie ak RASE NK GELAK JE! nie la statement paling BODOH ak jumpe! Aku cakap "TOO GOOD" WEYH BAHLOL! ko blaja BI kan? PERFECT ngn TOO GOOD same yeh? Tulis nk GEMPAK JE! tp kalo betul tu xpe la weyh! BANGANG! YE! AK MENGAKU AK BUKAN PERFECT MCM KORG! KORG KAN PREFECT SNGT! SBB TU AK PRACTICE! Ko kan pandai sngt, xkn xpenah jumpe ayat "PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT".

"kite org xkn rehat situ" - weyh! ak XDE HAL la KORG XNK REHAT situ~ AK LAGI HAPPY xpayah tngk muke korg! Ye, Ak pikir 100 kali nk rehat kt mane sbb xnk ganggu korg tp bile ak pikir balek. Ak yg first dudok situ! SO it's MY PLACE! Ko ade ckp, "tu mmg bukan tmpt kteorg" Da, ABES TU?? belah lah. 

"selesaikan cara matang" - nie yg seronok nie bile org luar da msok skali. KO NK MASOK CAMPUR APESAL?? PIKIR KO TU DULU! Mcm in good situation!! and ak ade bace "mmg nk selesaikan care matang tp die tu ha" DIE TU HA?!!! YEH! KORG yg bersikap TAK MATANG LANGSUNG! Ak NK SELESAIKAN korg TARIK MUKE! SINDIR2~ weyh, tu matang ye? oh, LUPE PULAK! SINDIR TU MATANG! AK rase mase ak darjah 6 ak dah xpakai sindir2 nie..Sindir2 bende paling bodoh! So, SKANG SAPE YG X MATANG???

"kte org dah kick ur ass out" - hurm~ sorry to break it to u sista but i declare myself out so xpayah nk bangge dpt kick org out. xpayah lah ko nk bangge sngt ngn name korg tu sbb mnde tu pon ak yg create just ak xcreate MBV FILE je..

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KEPADE : ORANG2 "CAMPUR TANGAN"

ape yg korg dngr tu SEMUA NYER BETUL~ kalo org nk defend dri sndiri mmg semua nyer betul. mcm ko x defend diri ko kan. tp ak ade satu je soalan. ASAL KO KESAH SANGAT???? KO DA XDE KEJE?? ke nk MATI dah? Ak xtau ape dorg ckp kt ko tp ak tau ak XNAK KESAH! Ak tau sume nyer yg xbetul and lagi nk turun kan name ak.

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KEPADE : YANG BERKAITAN.

ak XTAU APE SALAH AK tp ak ADMIT ape je yg ak bwt. Ak nk selesaikan tp KORG YG XNAK and KORG yg PILIH JALAN nie. So, ak GO ON WITH THE FLOW! Yg pasti nyer ak tau korg marah sbb KORG MESTI KNE MARAH NGN CIKGU and sbb tu korg XPUAS ATI so BENCI ak BALEK. Fine then, Let's JUST LIVE OUR OWN LIFES! ak nk ckp terima kasih bnyk2 sb layan ak yg bodoh nie selame ini. and MINTAK MAAF bnyk2 sbb ak ckp psl haram tu. Ak mmg xde niat mcm tu. SEMUA YG AK BAGI dr F1 sampai skang AK HALAL SEMUA! and aku nk ckp betape ak cherish korg walaupun saket nyer kt dlm. IT HURTS ME TO HURT YOU BUT IT FOR THE BEST FOR ALL OF US. WHATEVER THAT I WROTE ABOVE IF IT HURTS YOU GUYS AND RSE AKU NIE "POYO" SNGT, AK MINTAK MAAF BNYK2 DR HUJUNG RAMBUT KE HUJUNG KAKI.

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THINGS JUST STILL REMAIN UNCHANGE AND UNSOLVED. I CAN'T HELP IT. I NEED THEM TO HELP ME BUT IT SEEMS LIKE NOTHING WILL CHANGE. I DON'T ASK FOR THIS NOR I HOPE FOR THIS SO I'LL JUST REMAIN SILENCE UNTIL I KNEW WHAT I DID. WELL, AT LEAST I KNOW MY PLACE AND I DID APOLOGISE.

thx to u my dear~

Hello Everybody, zue reporting on duty, kekekeke~
How's everybody??? well? ok? fine? I suppose GREAT then,

My day was GREAT,
well, not that GREAT but I had a rather good time so far..

I was awaken this morning at 8 by a natural alarm,
HA HA! Mak got me up today,
We go out for some stuff and plants and..
FOOD! hahaha~ MY FAVORITE!

Then, went back home,
like always online, download and just spazz around,
and was able to talk random stuff to him..
OMO NA~ freaking happy..

Basically he was the one who made my day, keke~
So thx to him for making me happy..
But it is such a shame that Im unable to call him Oppa,
He is younger than I am,
Yea, we were born on the same year but different month,
I was born on June, earlier than him,
and because of that Im really dissapointed,

I don't know my promise to my heart that,
I am not gonna like a younger dude still working or not..
To be honest, I really2 like him A LOT,
but he's is younger than me and not to mention so hard to get..
dang!

HA HA HA HA HA~!!!!! ROFL

okok, before anybody starts to think Im crazee,

thinking about what Im gonna write just kills me already,

kekekekeke~ chukette X_X

This is what happen to me recently,

I went to Jusco that day with my Lovely Parents,

Then, My dad went back home for a while,

He was gonna take some stuff from the house,

So, I just stick around with My Mom,

We were waiting for the salesman to bring new stocks for us,

We were waiting for like ages, So I decide to go somewhere else,

Firsly, Do you knoe that Jusco love to show "Gee"??

Yeah~ on the tvs at the electricals,

It was supposed to attract customers, right?

But, the "pabo" me~

Who was freaking damn boring,

went to the tv part, then I saw "Gee"

Without realising I was already DANCING!

hahahahaha~ GOD DAMN! 

I WAS DANCING GEE AT JUSCO????

YEAH! DANG~ ANYWHERE BUT THERE..

When I turn around, there wa like 20 peeps around me,

and all were GUYS! OMG! 

They were like 0.O'''

PRICELESS! kahkahkahkah! gila la~

Then, eventually, they starts to dance too!

OMG! THE BEST! They even asked me to teach them,

Seriously, I was like "whuuttt"

Then, We all dance like stupidos there,

I was so embarras of myself,

but at the same time it was so cool,

and yeah! FREAKING FUN!
what a day! keke~

**The thing I wanna share here is that,

When you love or like something,

You just can't held yourself back from doing it,

Just like what I did that night..

Wekcome OppaS :)

Heyyo! ^_^
Mianhe~ haven't wrote in a while,
Just feel like spamming photos only these days,
Dang~ Im so excited about BEAST's Comeback!
They basically just killed me again~ *sigh* keke~

Er, the post before this one is to celebrate,
YANG YOSEOB and
SON DONGWOON to twitter land~
weeeee~ Im too happy about this!
currently, Im just waiting for Jang HyunSeung to do his job X)
that's all for now, byeyo! :)

oh ya~ u can check their,
 Tweets and also YOZM on the right of my page.

keeping the BEAST love,

zue

*jadik gila da*

ok~ seriously? hate the concept..

can't he get any cuter? People, meet the new Yong Yoseob :)

OMO NA~ it's number 4!!! OUR LUCKY NUMBER!

ok~ like seriously? do they have to? dang~ I LOVE THESE TWO!

OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG!

OppaS, STOP KILLING ME PLEASE,

No matter how much you guys tried to kill me,

It won't work coz I'll be staying,

Im gonna stay to watch you guys and see you guys again!.

Im not going unless I see you guys infront of my own eyes,

AGAIN N AGAIN N AGAIN n ................................

You guys are just too awesome and too PERFECT!

CHECK IT OUT! click~ click~ click~

Lights Go On Again Teaser

Yoseob turn into Junhyung,
Junhyung turn into Yoseob.
What happen to the world? =.='

keeping up the love, 

zue

OMG! OMG! Im so excited.

OMG! The Audio Teaser of Beautiful have been released~!!!!
I am so loving this, but ya, I think Im a bit crazee, hehe~
It's just an audio teaser not even a real teaser,
Well, ask any b2uty, any of them..
Are there any that are not excited as I am??

Here, check it out.
Beautiful Audio Teaser

wtfish?

*blergh* HATE THIS SO MUCH!
The same thing happen to me twice this week,
You wanna know what?

Coming back to house and
seeing lunch ready for me already but
No One to eat with..
SO BORING!

I rather have to make my own food
then having to eat whatever serve alone!

I love eating with people,
especially my Ayah, Emak and Kakak2,
or more wild, My crazee siblings,
My aunts, My uncles, My grandma & granpa!!
weeeeeeeeeeee~!


HATE EATING ALONE!
nk sign petition!

Joker Party!

next on list is.......
*drumroll*
our very own Joker,

LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!
instead of becoming our charismatic Joker,
he became our CUTE JOKER!
Which I really2 like and love!
cr : Yong Junhyung himself and uploaders..

Yoseob Partee

Today, I feel like spamming photos!
Yang Yoseob anyone?
Ready?! GO!

sheshi fever~! yeah! Im having one right now!
My kezen almost die watching all these cute stuffs..

p/s: I can't remember who re-upload this,
Please come claim if this is yours,
so that I can credit u and in the mean time,
cr : as tagged!

all a B2UTY could ask..

This is a B2UTY dream flight.

Being welcomed to BEAST AIRLINE.

I have to say, BEAST AIRLINE,

got the best offer ever! like ever!

Maybe because there are new but

they manage to JAMMED the line 

on the day the tickets were released,

same like how any big idols did,

Yeah! Big! as if TVXQ and Big Bang.

Im really dissapointed that I couldn't go,

I hope BEAST AIRLINE will arrive in Malaysia soon!

*praying hard*

im not ready for you!

*sigh* *sigh* *sigh* *sigh* *sigh* *sigh*

Money Oh Money!

Will come flying to me?

B2UTYs, are you ready?

Seriously? Im NOT..

xpuas lg tngk SOOM,

tngk2 dorg nk kuar 4th album da,

aigoo~ what happen???

sign petition r,

WE STILL WANT SOOM!
NOT READY FOR 4TH ABLUM!

ekekekekeke~! ^_^

but what confuses me is that,

they say it's the 2nd part of Mastermind,

but it stated here "4th Mini Album"

bboooooyyyaaaa?????

I'll just get ready with my money then,

Hope MYB2UTY  does a pre-order too this time,

don't wanna wait nor buy it else where..

BEAST FIGHTING~!

pain~ pain~ go away! don't come again another day.. i hate u! ha ha ha

this is seriously a pain in the ass!
not being able to dance is the most sad thing to me,

in my leg conditon currently like this,
I don't think Im able to do any spinning or jumping,
I tried, I mean I really do,
but the pain is really hurting me,

The last time I had this much pain is 
when I fell from the stairs early this year,
at that time, I can't even move what more of walk,
or jumping or spinning or dancing..
Anything with a vigurous move.

Arrghh~! this is a super perfect timing,
with the competition just around the corner,
I think Im gonna die thinking about this,
This competition means the world to me!

To endure the pain, wahh~
really can't affort to do so,
I seriously can't explain how it feels,
but I can tell u, it's not a joke!

With the Streetmob around the corner too,
*sigh* am I able to practice for it?
It's BEAST songs we are talking about here,
and it's not one but 5 songs.

and I need to prepare myself with SOOM too,
so that I can help other when,
my weekly MYB2UTY practice came.

zue~ fighting! I know I can do this!

sejuk~ huwaaaaaa! :'( xmo mndi..

I think Im gonna have a fever la,
Since yesterday, it has been so cold..

At school just now, I think Im about to die in freeze,
The wheather is really killing me,
No sunshine at all kot today,
I was in my blanket all day when I was home,

Plus, Im a having a crazee day today with my cousin,
Lucky her, she finish her exam already..
When I just start my exam! ergh! BORING!

Wanna go now, wanna continue watching Music Bank,
Currently, the perfs are from people I don't know,
and Im kinda bored watching their perfs,
that's why I decide to write..

and Im gonna continue being under my blankie~
hahahahahaha! SEJUK! SEJUK! SEJUK!